Another week has gone by.... Monday started out... what can I say... stressful. I arrived at work at 8:25 and by 8:30 I was chasing my ct down the street across busy traffic. Luckily I had 2 other men helping me... If a ct is injured in our care we are responsible... even if ct is running away. He really was not running away... it was all about attention. I lasted about an hour with him (he ran away 4 times during that time and cussed me out when I tried to reason with him) now remember I have no training in this field I have to rely on my own wits and there are days even those are limited. The rest of the week I was paired up with calmer clients who wanted to be at the program... as for the other ct he continued his behavior 4 days in a row... all day ... until the police were called by someone driving by because he was fighting with a coach in the street... the PD does not have time to play such games and have no problem arresting someone sane or not. The ct behaved (sort of) the rest of the week.
Thursday was my birthday but since that day is my 11 hour work day I just laid low and saved my energy. The next day Lucy had to go to the vet, her left eye was swollen and she was definitely in pain. We now have 2 one-eyed dogs. Apparently her eye had an ulcer for months... did you know dogs have 3 eyelids? Me neither... well this ulcer must have been hidden good because no one noticed it me or her vet. They removed the eye that afternoon and cleaned her teeth... she lost 6... I sure hope this is the end of her medical problems... that poor pooch has been through so much! I know I said it before but I will say it again... It is amazing how resilient animals are... even though her eye hurt she was ready for a snack! She is resting now wearing her cone for the next 2 weeks until the stitches come out.
Hope your week is sane and don't forget to laugh out loud! xo Inge

I am in awe of people who say they knew what they wanted to do with their life since they were a kid. I never contemplated anything like that. My days were spent pretty much wondering what I was going to do that day. Maybe if if I had been paying more attention to my future I would not have so much trouble with it now. I want to follow my passion and earn a living from that but the times I have attempted to go that way; like shop for antiques and collectibles and resell them... well, it just didn't pan out - financially speaking. I know that some say there is more to success than money but the guy I give my rent money to each month will beg to differ.
I am visualizing myself getting paid lots of money and see myself getting hired but so far nothing has really materialized. I really don't know what my perfect job is... well I can day dream about what I would like it to be, but in order for that to manifest itself will require money and lots of it. I have read plenty of books that say follow your dream and start your dream business but don't quit your day job until it becomes financially stable. Right now I want a job that pays me enough money to pay my expenses and allows me the extra time to research my dream job, oh, and how about a healthy work environment where the company does not work it's emloyees to death. I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing. I am keeping my part of the deal; visualizing, vision board, meditating, gratitude journal, applying for jobs online and in person, even cold calling. I am more than ready for the universe to keep its part of the deal. I know patience is a virtue but I live in a world that wants to be paid and on time. I am ready for that job. RIGHT NOW!
Hope your day is spent at a job that you love and don't forget to laugh out loud!
xoxo Inge

It's day 2 of my 100 Day Reality Challenge. I got the ok to join the site... I can understand how they probably have to approve each member because it is an interractive site that could be controversial by some groups of people and if someone who had less than noble intentions made their way onto the site... well, I think you get my drift. So anyway, I am official, which means I am privy to all the tools I need to achieve my goals and dreams.
I was given some questions to think about which I wrote the answers to in a journal book. I won't go into what they were but I did decide to be open about the name of the place I worked because I think... no, I know the reason I did not mention the name before was because I was driven by fear... the fear that if someone from the company found out I was blogging about them I would lose my job.... So I decided to stop living in fear and the first step to walk the talk is to tell you where I worked. Marie Callender's Restaurant. There I said it. The experience I was sold on was definitely not the experience I... well, experienced. But I will not be angry about it but instead be grateful for the experience. I learned a great lesson even though the paycheck was bigger than I ever got, I did not like the environment. I found myself, especially in the last few weeks saying to myself how much I hated that job. I dreaded going there and felt trapped. This job in retrospect help me realize what I did not want as far as employment. I was stubborn though and continued to show up at a place that did nothing but aggravate me for 11 hours. I did not pay attention to my feelings and focused on the paycheck. It was my physical strength or rather lack of that caught up with me. My constant negative feelings helped to lower my immune system and my body finally crashed the last week I was supposed to work.
I am grateful to all the situations and people who I was angry with because if all this would not have happened I would still be there collecting a paycheck and not living my dream. I still do not have a clear idea what that looks like but at least I have the tools to figure that out. I want to practise trusting the universe to provide the guidance I need and know that I will be taken care of. It has happened in the past... I just forgot.

Back in 1999 I decided to check out a massage therapy class located a couple of blocks from my house. I had been interested in learning massage therapy and saw it as a career possibility. I went to a free class and within minutes, I knew it was for me. Nine months later I graduated but I didn't know where I wanted to work. I lived 10 minutes from Fisherman's Wharf so I decided to take the massage chair I had recently purchased down there to see if I could make some money offerering free 10 minute massages - working basically for tips. In San Francisco it is alright to perform in certain areas in the city for tips - Mimes, jugglers, and musicians have been earning a living this way for years. I thought why not offer the tourists a massage? The first day I brought home 75.00 for 5 hours of work! I made my living that way for the next 2 years. I was completely dependant on what the universe provided for me. I always had enough money to pay me bills. Back then I didn't worry about the future. I just showed up. Eventually I met people who offered me work indoors, providing massage to hotel guests at wine hour. Back then my life consisted of synchronicity. I was intune with my spirit guides, I meditated regularly, and lived my life pretty much fearless. I did it back then and I will do it again. My life felt more in balance.
Hope your living a balanced life today and don't forget to laugh out loud!
xoxo Inge
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Maybe I'm not as "emapthetic" as I thought. I found out today that I got 2 complaints from my staff the other day. One was from my cashier... she brought her mother in yesterday to tell my GM that I made her feel bad because I told her she needed to learn how to count back change the old fashioned way - using her head and not to rely on the computer cash register to tell her how much change she should give. Someone else was upset that I actually expect them to work.
These kids today have been coddled way too much!
Hope your workday is fun and don't forget to laugh out loud!
xoxo Inge