May 29, 2011
I believe if I had handled my stressful thoughts differently I might not have manifested my illness. As you know I suffer from OCD...thankfully it is not as bad as some people's can be...but I can obsess about a negative thought for hours even days. What my illness taught me is to let go of things I have no control over and to forgive others when I believe they have wronged me. There is alot in that article that I am guilty of but thankfully I have had my "Aha" moment and can change my thinking. I have been given a second chance to do it differently...to let go...to be less fearful...to stop "what if" thinking...to be easier on myself.
I am grateful.
May 28, 2011
LAUGH WHEN YOU CAN,
APOLOGIZE WHEN YOU SHOULD,AND LET GO OF WHAT YOU CAN'T CHANGE,
FORGIVE QUICKLY,PLAY HARD,TAKE CHANCES,
GIVE EVERYTHING AND HAVE NO REGRETS,
LIFE IS TO SHORT TO BE ANYTHING BUT HAPPY !
Her blog is also very nice to look at...
May 26, 2011
May 25, 2011
But now we have a new place. I have been praying for this for a year and we had a sign posted at the complex for 4 months that we wanted to rent a bottom floor-one bedroom...then 2 days ago we got the call! We are so blessed!!! And grateful. God has answered all my prayers and I am so grateful!
May 24, 2011
May 23, 2011
May 22, 2011
Well, it's Sunday evening...another week gone by...even though I am not as busy as last year...working full time, running errands, taking care of the critters, etc. time still goes by fast! This week has been great for me. It was a week ago last Friday that I went shopping a couple of hours at a local outside mall (with the help of my walker and friends)...then I drove my car a couple of times with James and John. Yesterday I drove to my friends home...all by myself and walked up the stairs to their condo! That's huge for me...just under 5 months ago I was in the emergency room. I am soooo happy and grateful :)
May 20, 2011
I found this article on the web and I think it is soooo true!
May 17, 2011
May 14, 2011
May 13, 2011
My next goal is to drive...once I achieve that I'm free! Now don't get me wrong there are still thing that pop up...new challenges...ever since I did the scan my phobias have reappeared...anxiety and panic attacks...it was those that got me out of the house faster...at least I think so...fresh air is therapeutic at least for me. I know it's in my head but anyone who experiences the same knows the fear seems so real.
Then there is my nose and my sense of smell... I can't be around any chemical smell disguised as
a fragrance... be it deodorant or laundry soap. I never had that problem before. These problems can be overcome compared to what I know other people with the c-word are going through. I am definitely not complaining! Every day is a gift and I won't forget that :)
May 4, 2011
I also gained 2 more pounds...I weigh 138...that's 10 pounds less than before I got sick. Did I mention my juicer is here? I'm glad I got the mini because it is huge! I already made myself a cucumber-apple juice...YUM! It really makes alot of juice...now I have to find a store that sells organic veggies...at least cucumbers, apples, and celery...oh and not pay a huge amount. It is a crime that the food that is healthy costs more and the food that is bad is cheap! John & I were in Von's today and they did not have anything organic to offer in the produce section...I talked to the produce guy about it and he told me that organic just does not sell in that store but the store across town does. So we went over to the milk section to buy some organic milk and all the organic ones expired today...I mean there was maybe one missing but the regular milk-pumped full of hormones was nearly sold out! The produce guy was right...organic doesn't sell in that store. So I plan to call around and find out which stores do sell organic and hopefully at a reasonable price. xo Inge
May 3, 2011
May 2, 2011
Then we went to a BBQ party at our friends condo. The weather was lovely...I sat in the shade and watched the action...kids playing in then pool...meeting new people. I met a retired couple
who own a travel trailer...they took 6 years off and explored the US and Canada. That is what John and I want to do...well, not travel the whole US but parts of it...Route 66 for sure. We plan to rent a Mini Wini or something similar and snoop around Arizona and California.
For now I am happy driving around Anaheim...sitting in the fresh air...oh, and sitting in the front seat of the car...I have been laying down in the back seat because my tush was too tender to sit on...the front seat is not that comfy but I make it work.