Junkstyle Diva

In general I do not like reality shows, but I am guilty of watching some. It started with "The Osbornes"... I got a kick out of that crazy family. Then there is "Tori & Dean"... I like that show because even though they are a Hollywood couple they have the same issues that all married couples deal with - without the drama that so many reality shows interject, like "Jon & Kate plus 8"... I never watched that show because I did not find it entertaining to watch a bunch of kids wandering around doing whatever kids their age do and I did not like Kate... the few times I did see the show for a few minutes she was bitching about something and then turning around and acting the victim... two characteristics of some women that drive me crazy!

Now I am hooked on "Hollywood Husbands"... I guess it is because my fantasy is to have John be my house hubby. I would enjoy being the bread winner and having John take care of the house chores. Maybe someday...

Now for something... serious... sort of... I want to make a confession because I think there are more people out there who experience the same thing and by giving it a voice maybe I can control it better. OCD - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I don't have it as bad as some people... I don't wash my hands 100 times a day... mine is more like "Monk"...you know the guy who is a police detective on t.v... a modern day Columbo with OCD. I worry about things I have no control over... I have phobias about germs - I don't like to shake peoples hands, I don't touch public door knobs, I don't like my silverware to touch the table in restaurants, I hate flying (in an airplane) and elevators. I think my phobias basically revolve around control issues. I have not been medically declared a nut but I know secretly I am and I have come to terms with it and my hubby puts up with it. I try to laugh about it but there are times that it really bugs me and I spend the day or most of it trying to reason with myself to stop it. It is much worse when I am stressed and job hunting and house hunting kicks it in high gear. Even though on the outside I seem normal, inside I feel tense, fearful, depressed. Sometimes my symptoms are obsessive thoughts... if I have an issue with someone I can replay that scene over and over and over again. I usually add things that I wish I had said and then that person's reaction. I am sure while I am obsessing, the other person is sleeping soundly or going about their business without a clue. I know it really is about me... well, there I said it and now you know... this hip, together, well dressed, opinionated chick has some issues. I guess that is just a part of being human but I don't like to admit such things because I like to live by the creed "Never let them see you sweat". Anyway, now you know.

Have a good week and don't forget to laugh out loud!

xoxo Inge

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